Ramblings

Hi blog followers!!! How have you guys been? We seem to have gotten much busier around here. Shopping and going out and doing stuff and cleaning and playing the list continues forever! The point is I have been neglecting you. I hope everyone has been enjoying the sun, or if you are like us the rain. I can tell ya though I wouldn't mind some sun about now. The kiddos are going stir crazy! I also am not enjoying the mud the dog keeps dragging in but oh well that's life it's easy to clean up I suppose.

There really isn't much new going on round here. We resigned our lease so we will be in our current location for at least another year, we made a huge decision to have no more children and my husband asks that I not talk about the fact that he is scheduled to have surgery on the 28th to have a permanent change made. Oops guess I just talked about it haha! I really need to say something about it though. I am having second thoughts about having that permanent fix being done. I know in my head that more children isn't going to happen but try telling that to my heart. No more tiny babies at home to watch grow up and do all their firsts. It makes me sad but on the same side it makes me happy. That also means no more diapers, no more 2 am feedings, no more worrying about the costs that come along with a newborn. I also get to start having a life outside of my home which is going to be a major shock to me at first. Sully is about to start preschool, and Fallon daycare shortly thereafter, which means momma gets to go to school, and get a job, and have a life away from my children again. I think that scares me more than anything. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself! I have no idea what I want to be in life. I have had ideas over the years but for some reason or another I just keep changing my mind and I don't know. I am scared and excited about all of this and I know I'm ready to not have more children but it still makes me a little sad. I think it would any woman to know that she was at the end of having babies, but where am I going to go with my life? I have no clue. Wish me luck! I am going to need it and I promise if I figure it out anytime soon I will let you guys know!

P.S. Sorry about the rambling, just needed to get that off my chest somewhere. Also, stay tuned later in the day for a craft post! We are going to make egg carton caterpillars!!