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Merry Chirstmas!!!!
Hey everyone!! Hope everybody had a merry Christmas!!! We did! We got spend our first Chirstmas morning at home!!! Talk about the best time ever!!! Sully had a great time opening gifts. The only trouble we had was that he would open one thing and want to play with it instead of opening the next thing lol. I think it's safe to say we have spoiled kiddos! I am glad we can do that for them though. We still have one more Christmas to go to and I am thinking, "Do we need more?" We got soo much already! Got to see our wonderful family, got tons of gifts, ate too much, suppose that's the holidays though! Anyway hope everyone had a wonderful holiday, got all they wanted, and stuffed themselves silly!!!
Kiddo Update Fallon is three months old now!!!
Hey everyone!!! As we are rounding the three month mark in Fallon's life I thought I would send out a small update!!! We don't go back to the doc until next month so no size updates although Fallon is supporting weight on her legs now, smiling all the time, she has started making loads of noises when she is happy, she also can push up on her arms and hold her weight for a few seconds at a time...basically she is doing great!!! She discovered her hands and loves to suck on them, and I think that's about all the new stuff she has done!!! Sully has had his first "monster" scare which made for one very long night. We think we have cleared up the scare for now....but it will probably come back, as we think the heater is his monster. He is also doing very well in the potty training area!!! We still have accidents as we are all learning but things are coming right along in that area so YAY!!! I think that's about it!!!
Can't Sleep.
Can't sleep have too much on my mind so I figured why not blog a little about my day.
Well let's see woke up at seven to my hungry little piglet, Fallon, got her fed then did a bit of net surfing all the while having a very intellectual conversation with my three month old...full of oos and aaas and all those wonderful first baby noises. I have been enjoying her noises soo soo much. She is also smiling tons!!! She is such a happy baby. She loves her mommy very much hehe!
About nine my monster got up and then my day got a bit crazy!!! Seems the crazy level in my house always goes up about 100 notches once he gets out of bed. We both ate cookies for breakfast...real healthy I know but I figure what the heck its the holidays and I made about 5 dozen cookies last night lol...we had them with milk so that balances out right ;). Sully and I spent the rest of our morning coloring and watching cartoons while Fallon slept in her boppy next to us on the floor. We spent our afternoon with me watching desperate housewives and Sully in my room watching more cartoons. I also cleaned cleaned cleaned my house...because I never do that, haha.
About seven Ryan got home made biscuits and gravy (yummy!) and we spent the rest of our night juggling our munchkins. Very interesting day in the life of us I know! Conversations with three month olds and three year olds, coloring, and cartoons! I totally love every minute of it!!!
Seems my typical day is ending badly though because I found out my mom isn't doing very well. She is in the hospital and has been for a month now and seems to be getting worse, although I am assured she is supposed to start getting better I just don't know how to feel. As most of you know I have a bad relationship with my mom, I haven't spoken to or seen her in almost three years and now I am thinking I am gonna have to break down and go see her, because if nothing else to ease my own mind. If she dies I will never forgive myself for not going and I will have that with me for the rest of my life, but if she's ok in the end am I expected to start seeing her and being a "daughter" again? So there lies my dilemma. Shall I stick to my values and not go or do I go? I mean no matter how far apart I have distanced myself from her she is still my mom right? So the obvious choice is go and see her...but on the flip side of that I feel I would be going solely because of selfish reasons, to ease my conscience because if she pulls out of this I won't be able to have a relatinoship with her, it's just too hard. I have given the woman so many chances in my life and she screws them all up and I am afraid if my kids know her she will somehow hurt them and I can't have that. Although like I said she is my mom. There is also this nagging feeling I have about being the oldest sibling. I am the oldest and in times like this feel I should be helping my younger siblings thru this trouble and be taking on the burdens that they are taking on. I am the strongest of all of us and I am sitting here on my butt having nothing to do with the entire situation isn't that selfish? God I am so confused. Am I selfish or am I doing the right thing? Who knows? I think I will go see my mom seems to me that is what I should do, if not for myself, for her, and my siblings so they have me to lean on. Yeah that's what I should do, that's the right thing to do.
Well let's see woke up at seven to my hungry little piglet, Fallon, got her fed then did a bit of net surfing all the while having a very intellectual conversation with my three month old...full of oos and aaas and all those wonderful first baby noises. I have been enjoying her noises soo soo much. She is also smiling tons!!! She is such a happy baby. She loves her mommy very much hehe!
About nine my monster got up and then my day got a bit crazy!!! Seems the crazy level in my house always goes up about 100 notches once he gets out of bed. We both ate cookies for breakfast...real healthy I know but I figure what the heck its the holidays and I made about 5 dozen cookies last night lol...we had them with milk so that balances out right ;). Sully and I spent the rest of our morning coloring and watching cartoons while Fallon slept in her boppy next to us on the floor. We spent our afternoon with me watching desperate housewives and Sully in my room watching more cartoons. I also cleaned cleaned cleaned my house...because I never do that, haha.
About seven Ryan got home made biscuits and gravy (yummy!) and we spent the rest of our night juggling our munchkins. Very interesting day in the life of us I know! Conversations with three month olds and three year olds, coloring, and cartoons! I totally love every minute of it!!!
Seems my typical day is ending badly though because I found out my mom isn't doing very well. She is in the hospital and has been for a month now and seems to be getting worse, although I am assured she is supposed to start getting better I just don't know how to feel. As most of you know I have a bad relationship with my mom, I haven't spoken to or seen her in almost three years and now I am thinking I am gonna have to break down and go see her, because if nothing else to ease my own mind. If she dies I will never forgive myself for not going and I will have that with me for the rest of my life, but if she's ok in the end am I expected to start seeing her and being a "daughter" again? So there lies my dilemma. Shall I stick to my values and not go or do I go? I mean no matter how far apart I have distanced myself from her she is still my mom right? So the obvious choice is go and see her...but on the flip side of that I feel I would be going solely because of selfish reasons, to ease my conscience because if she pulls out of this I won't be able to have a relatinoship with her, it's just too hard. I have given the woman so many chances in my life and she screws them all up and I am afraid if my kids know her she will somehow hurt them and I can't have that. Although like I said she is my mom. There is also this nagging feeling I have about being the oldest sibling. I am the oldest and in times like this feel I should be helping my younger siblings thru this trouble and be taking on the burdens that they are taking on. I am the strongest of all of us and I am sitting here on my butt having nothing to do with the entire situation isn't that selfish? God I am so confused. Am I selfish or am I doing the right thing? Who knows? I think I will go see my mom seems to me that is what I should do, if not for myself, for her, and my siblings so they have me to lean on. Yeah that's what I should do, that's the right thing to do.
Feeling Blessed!!!
Just wanted to tell everyone I love you all!!! I know I don't get to see people often but I try to keep in touch and I just feel blessed to have you all in my life. I have a wondeful husband and two (even though they have their moments) amazing children that love me to death! I have a wonderful grandma whom I just adore and look up to and appreciate immensly. Sisters who even though I don't see that often I couldn't imagine life without them and brothers I love so much! Parents who live too far away but are starting to finally show much more love an appreciation. Life is great! Money is tight...as it is with everyone, people keep rooting for us to fail not only financially but in our marriage as well and we just keep on trucking with our heads held high. So life is wonderful and I couldn't ask for more. A strong happy marriage, strong happy kids, wonderful family, great friends what more does a person need? So thank you all for being a part of my life and for making it that much better by being in it. I love you all and thanks for helping me to be blessed!!! I wish all of you the same.
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