Merry Chirstmas!!!!

Hey everyone!! Hope everybody had a merry Christmas!!! We did! We got spend our first Chirstmas morning at home!!! Talk about the best time ever!!! Sully had a great time opening gifts. The only trouble we had was that he would open one thing and want to play with it instead of opening the next thing lol. I think it's safe to say we have spoiled kiddos! I am glad we can do that for them though. We still have one more Christmas to go to and I am thinking, "Do we need more?" We got soo much already! Got to see our wonderful family, got tons of gifts, ate too much, suppose that's the holidays though! Anyway hope everyone had a wonderful holiday, got all they wanted, and stuffed themselves silly!!!

Kiddo Update Fallon is three months old now!!!

Hey everyone!!! As we are rounding the three month mark in Fallon's life I thought I would send out a small update!!! We don't go back to the doc until next month so no size updates although Fallon is supporting weight on her legs now, smiling all the time, she has started making loads of noises when she is happy, she also can push up on her arms and hold her weight for a few seconds at a time...basically she is doing great!!! She discovered her hands and loves to suck on them, and I think that's about all the new stuff she has done!!! Sully has had his first "monster" scare which made for one very long night. We think we have cleared up the scare for now....but it will probably come back, as we think the heater is his monster. He is also doing very well in the potty training area!!! We still have accidents as we are all learning but things are coming right along in that area so YAY!!! I think that's about it!!!

Can't Sleep.

Can't sleep have too much on my mind so I figured why not blog a little about my day.

Well let's see woke up at seven to my hungry little piglet, Fallon, got her fed then did a bit of net surfing all the while having a very intellectual conversation with my three month old...full of oos and aaas and all those wonderful first baby noises. I have been enjoying her noises soo soo much. She is also smiling tons!!! She is such a happy baby. She loves her mommy very much hehe!

About nine my monster got up and then my day got a bit crazy!!! Seems the crazy level in my house always goes up about 100 notches once he gets out of bed. We both ate cookies for breakfast...real healthy I know but I figure what the heck its the holidays and I made about 5 dozen cookies last night lol...we had them with milk so that balances out right ;). Sully and I spent the rest of our morning coloring and watching cartoons while Fallon slept in her boppy next to us on the floor. We spent our afternoon with me watching desperate housewives and Sully in my room watching more cartoons. I also cleaned cleaned cleaned my house...because I never do that, haha.

About seven Ryan got home made biscuits and gravy (yummy!) and we spent the rest of our night juggling our munchkins. Very interesting day in the life of us I know! Conversations with three month olds and three year olds, coloring, and cartoons! I totally love every minute of it!!!

Seems my typical day is ending badly though because I found out my mom isn't doing very well. She is in the hospital and has been for a month now and seems to be getting worse, although I am assured she is supposed to start getting better I just don't know how to feel. As most of you know I have a bad relationship with my mom, I haven't spoken to or seen her in almost three years and now I am thinking I am gonna have to break down and go see her, because if nothing else to ease my own mind. If she dies I will never forgive myself for not going and I will have that with me for the rest of my life, but if she's ok in the end am I expected to start seeing her and being a "daughter" again? So there lies my dilemma. Shall I stick to my values and not go or do I go? I mean no matter how far apart I have distanced myself from her she is still my mom right? So the obvious choice is go and see her...but on the flip side of that I feel I would be going solely because of selfish reasons, to ease my conscience because if she pulls out of this I won't be able to have a relatinoship with her, it's just too hard. I have given the woman so many chances in my life and she screws them all up and I am afraid if my kids know her she will somehow hurt them and I can't have that. Although like I said she is my mom. There is also this nagging feeling I have about being the oldest sibling. I am the oldest and in times like this feel I should be helping my younger siblings thru this trouble and be taking on the burdens that they are taking on. I am the strongest of all of us and I am sitting here on my butt having nothing to do with the entire situation isn't that selfish? God I am so confused. Am I selfish or am I doing the right thing? Who knows? I think I will go see my mom seems to me that is what I should do, if not for myself, for her, and my siblings so they have me to lean on. Yeah that's what I should do, that's the right thing to do.

Feeling Blessed!!!

Just wanted to tell everyone I love you all!!! I know I don't get to see people often but I try to keep in touch and I just feel blessed to have you all in my life. I have a wondeful husband and two (even though they have their moments) amazing children that love me to death! I have a wonderful grandma whom I just adore and look up to and appreciate immensly. Sisters who even though I don't see that often I couldn't imagine life without them and brothers I love so much! Parents who live too far away but are starting to finally show much more love an appreciation. Life is great! Money is tight...as it is with everyone, people keep rooting for us to fail not only financially but in our marriage as well and we just keep on trucking with our heads held high. So life is wonderful and I couldn't ask for more. A strong happy marriage, strong happy kids, wonderful family, great friends what more does a person need? So thank you all for being a part of my life and for making it that much better by being in it. I love you all and thanks for helping me to be blessed!!! I wish all of you the same.

Catching Up!!!

Well I haven't posted in a while but figured I have a few mins while Fallon is being content hanging with her daddy and Sully is watching cartoons I could jot down a few things.

Well first of all HAPPY THANKSGIVING to all!!!! I hope everyone had a great holiday and ate too much food!!! We had a wonderful Thanksgiving...aside from my dumb turkey taking waaay too long to cook. We had wonderful food and wonderful company. I missed my family that I didn't get to see but I did get to see some family that I hadn't seen in over two years, my little sisters! My brother and his girlfriend brought them to visit and oh man what a wonderful time that was. I have missed them soo much and to get to see them and introduce them to my kids and introduce my kids to them it was just blissful! They promise they are coming back before Christmas and I am gonna hold them to it!

Well lets see what else? Oh the kids! Fallon and Sully both had doc appts this month. Fallon weighs 11pds 3ozs and is 22inches long and is basically as healthy as can be!!! Sully is 46pds and 41inches tall!!!! He is HUGE!!!!!! He is also my little trooper! He got a flu shot and didn't even cry, not one tear, I was beyond proud of him for that! Sully also had a birthday! He is now three, and I am in shock, my baby is growing up waay too fast on me. His birthday was great we got him a cake and a new leapster and a few other games. He really got into opening his gifts so I am anxious to see him at Christmas when he has loads of stuff to unwrap. Fallon is doing great! Growing like a weed! She can hold her own head up and has started smiling when we talk to her and she is just happy to see us. She has also started trying to make some noises of her own but isn't quite as successful yet with the noises as she is with the smiles.

We have really had a very very busy November so far. Its been wonderful though I love staying busy. We got our Christmas tree up already and are gearing up for the busy month of December. Anyway that is a little about what our bunch has been up to!

Frustrated

Ok so I have a bit of a rant today. Why do people have to talk on their myspace profiles or facebook profiles about other people? Or change their mood to be talking about someone? It makes no sense to me. It's childish and frustrating and puts the party that is being discussed in this incredibly awkward position. Do you ask why? Do you ignore it and move on? Do you blog about it so you can get the feelings out lol? What is a person to do? Do you pretend this person is a good friend even though at some point they became more of an aquaintance than a friend? I am lost and not sure where to go with it. I am sooo tired of trying to be friends with people who would rather act like they are still in highschool and talking about people behind their backs and constantly partying instead of being a good mom, wife, husband, father, or friend. So I ask what's a person to do?

The weekend!

Well the weekend is almost over and what an interesting weekend it has been...or not lol. First of all it was Ryan's weekend to work all day on Saturday, I HATE HATE HATE those weekends. When he has that full day it feels like the week never really ends because we only get him home for a day and then its back to Briggs. Anyway that made the weekend start off sluggish just because I had nothing to look forward to then Fallon has been not sleeping for the past week and I am EXHAUSTED. She is not hungry, not wanting her paci ,not wanting anything, except for to be fussy and in the end that makes for one sleepy mommy. So I finally gave in and on Saturday called my father in law and asked for help. I hate asking for help but I needed some sleep, and to clean my house, and to shower. So anyway, after finally giving in while waiting for my father in law to come get Sully I got this plan in my head about what to do with the rest of my day. It was around noon, and I decided once Sully was gone I was gonna feed Fallon, then with any luck get her to sleep, take a quick shower, lay down for a nap, set an alarm, and then get up and clean. Well out the window went my plan! Sully left, I fed Fallon, and in the process of getting her to sleep fell asleep myself around one thirty or so and the next thing I knew I was waking back up and it was five thirty. Talk about sleepy!!! It felt good but I was mad I didn't get anything done. Why is it that when mom's get five minutes to themselves they feel they should be cleaning or cooking or just trying to get stuff done!? And then when we fall asleep instead of doing what needs to get done we feel guilty for taking some time to give ourselves some much needed rest or relaxation? Suppose that is one thing I need to learn because I am a mom who feels guilty for taking time to myself. I rarely get it, and even when I do I still feel bad for having gotten it. Anywho to wrap up my blog about the weekend....Sully stayed the night at grandpas...AWESOME stuff! Ryan and I went to bed at ten thiry last night...I felt old lol, down one kid and we were ready to pass out! I remember the days when it was like YAY no kid for the night lets stay up late, then we would still pass out at ten thirty haha! Man do kids take some energy but I love having them even if I am exhausted. We have spent our sunday doing mostly nothing. I made doughnuts this morning, we picked up Sully, and have been dealing with a cranky Fallon all day. Now its off to make dinner and get Sully in the tub in hopes of getting to bed by ten thirty again. Hope everyone had a great weekend!

A few basic facts!!!

Well hey everyone!!! Not sure why but I figured heck I am a stay at home mom I love the net why not start a blog lol!! I always need places to vent thoughts and shoot it could be fun! Anyway for those of you who don't know much about me at all or just not much about me these days. I am Amber..Dembkowski now used to be Workman! I am married to Ryan he and I have been married three years now and have been together for four. We have two kiddos! Sully Michael, who will amazingly be three on Tuesday I am in aww of that little fact. He is an adorable little monster lol but we love him! Next Fallon Elisabeth, who is just six weeks old but still has loads of personality already and is amazing us every day! Shes also an adorable little munchkin! I say munchkin simply because she's still too little to be a monster yet lol. We live in Manhattan,KS have lived here since '04 except for a short six month move to Pittsburg,KS last year. We love it here! Its small enough to not be overwhelming but big enough to satisfy that need for a city urge. Ry works at a dealership here in town..Briggs...he loves his job! He is such a people person and so dedicated to work. I am a stay at home mom. I love it! Being at home with my kids is such a rewarding experience in itself. Yes some days pulling out my hair sounds like a wonderful idea but most days that subsides because of a smile or a hug or a kiss because of the appreciation and love my son has for me or a coo or cuddle with daughter. Anyway those are just a few of the basic facts about our little family! I figured I would start with that and then go from there! Alrighty well until next time bye bye!!!

Kiddo Update!!!

Hey Everyone!!! Well Fallon is a month old already!!!! Its nuts! I think the first month in particular flies by so quickly. She is growing and getting bigger and bigger each day! At her one month check-up she weighed 8lbs 14 ounces and is now 21 inches long! So now she is at Sully's birth size lol. She can hold her head up and loves looking around and she smiles a lot, but we figure thats just gas lol! Sully adores her! He is always talking to her and shaking rattles for her to look at and cuddling up to her, and holding her! He has taken to his new sister very very well and thats about the best thing we could have asked for. Yes he is jealous a little but nothing that we can't handle. Ryan and I are doing great! Fallon is a good sleeper so that has helped us keep our sanity lol. I am doing great healing fine just learning to handle two kids instead of one! Anywho not much more to update about so HAPPY HALLOWEEN hope everyone has fun and is doing well.

Fallon's Birth!!!

Hey everyone so I haven't really said much about what happened with Fallon was born so I thought I would update my blog to let people know how things went!!! Well for starters she was early by a week she was born on the 17th instead of the 25th. I can't complain though hehe I got to meet her sooner this way! I am not sure what set off things but my water broke at 4:30 a.m. on the 17th I was a little freaked out at first lol but once I calmed and took everything in I realized I couldn't go to the hospital yet lol I had too much let to do before her birth! Then realizing I couldn't do it all I settled for I wanted to have a clean house before I went to the doc lol so I cleaned then we headed for the hospital. We got to the hospital around 6 a.m. found out that my water had for sure broken and I was dialated to a two so the docs and nurses started on prep for an emergency c-section. We went in for surgery and she was born at 8:22 a.m. weighing in at 7pds 3 ozs and 19 and a half inches long. She came out and was in wonderful shape and the surgery went beyond wonderfully!!!!!!! I can't even begin to explain the ease and relaxation that came along with the surgery and the hospital visit it was all just so wonderful. Since the hospital and being home she is doing great eating and sleeping well and I am healing up very nicely from surgery anxious to be done with the first two weeks of healing as they are the hardest. Sully is very curious about his sister, he seems to really like her and want to talk to her but he is rebelling of course to mommy and daddy but we expected it so its not that upsetting to us. Well not much more I can say if anyone has any questions feel free to ask other than that I just want to say thank you all for all of your congratulations and compliments I am a very very proud and thankful mommy and wifey!!!!

Two Weeks Left!!!

Hey everyone figured I hadn't updated on the baby lately wanted to let everyone know whats going on! Had a doc appt today did another sonogram Fallon looks great!!!! She weighs around 6pds 6oz which is well, great!!! At this point we are just patiently waiting for her arrival. Not dialated at all yet doc is very optomistic about the way things look considering the scheduled c-section and all. Unless something changes drastically in the next few weeks we will be meeting our little girl exactly two weeks from today September 25th!!!!! I won't post anymore blogs about her until she is actually here so hope everyone is ready for fall can't wait to blog again and post pics of our baby girl!!!!!!!!

Bab Update 35 Weeks!!!

Hey everyone!!! Well I had a doc appt and a sono appt this and a diabetes appt lol so its been a busy week. Anywho at my doc appt found out that everything is going great! I have to start doing non stress tests once a week just to make sure that Fallon is ok. Basically I get hooked up to a machine and they monitor her movements and heartbeat and then my contractions for about 20 mins. Did one this week and it went great! Still haven't gained much weight but doc isn't concerned about that at all.

Doc wanted us to have a sono appt to make sure she was doing good in terms of size because Sully was a big baby and because of the diabetes there is a risk for a big baby. Fallon is looking great! Weighing in at 4pds 1oz right now! Which is wonderful! She was head down at my doc appt then at the sono appt she was head up so she is still flipping which would explain some of my discomfort. Fun thing that happened at the sono is Fallon started sucking her toes and fingers all at the same time lol. It was something to see all hands and feet and nose and then all put straight into her mouth. We got a few pics but really they are blurry and would have to be explained so I am not gonna post them. Oh we also got to confirm that she is a girl!!!! It was very easy to see lol she cooperated very well.

Diabetes is going great...I am on insulin and still on my same diet but no troubles with that so far. We are all doing great here just patiently waiting for Sept and Miss Fallon to get here. Still the same date for the c-section Sept 25th. Hope everyone is doing good and had a great summer!

Baby Almost 30 Weeks!!!

Hey everyone! Well miss Fallon is doing great! According to everything she is growing just fine and her heartbeat is great! It was funny because she actually kicked the heartbeat monitor while they were checking her heartbeat. She is a very active baby which reassures me that she is healthy. Not much else to report really. I am doing good starting to get uncomfortable as she is getting bigger. My diabetes is going ok. My numbers are getting high and I will most likely be put on insulin in the next month or so, but that's life. We are gonna start working on her room this week so once we get that done I will post some pics. Hope everyone is doing great

Baby 24 Weeks!!!

Well everyone had a doc appt today!! For the most part uneventful. I am doing fine Fallon sounds great and is measuring fine. Our sono actually bumped her due date up to Oct 7th and well now that we know her size my doc felt comfy with going ahead and scheduling the c-section...she will be born on Thursday September 25th unless something happens before then! Very exciting knowing when she will be here!!! But at the same time terrifying considering oh ya know we have to get ready for her lol. She is kicking much harder now, if we sit and just watch we can see her poking her little arms and legs out at us soo much fun to watch and it just means shes healthy!!! I am feeling pregnant at this point its great some days and others not so great but anywho I am off for now catch ya guys next month for a new update!!!

Baby 20 weeks!!!

Well we had our sono everyone!! Our little baby is growing perfectly and is moving like CRAZY!!! She (YES I did say SHE!!!) was moving and turning and tumbling from start to finish off the ultrasound!!! She actually did a full flip lol it was soo much fun to see!!!! Well as I said before we are having a GIRL!!!! It was a very obvious thing just as out there as when we found out Sully was a boy lol!!! Her name is Fallon Elizabeth!!! As far as size and weight she is perfect and looks great and well we are just so dog gone happy lol we got to buy our blue and now we are gonna be buying our pink!!!! Sully still doesn't know much about things lol he thinks everyone has a baby in their belly lol we are hoping that closer to time he will comprehend things more!!! I am doing great feeling wonderful starting to nest a bit lol and just enjoying the baby and all her moving fun!!! Well at our next appt we should be able to schedule our c-section date I will let everyone know what we find out!!!

So excited had to tell everyone!!!

Well everyone had a check-up yesterday with my lovely doc!!! Everything is going wonderful!!! The baby's heartbeat is perfect I am healthy...not gaining weight but the baby is growing just fine! Well the reason for posting this is because I got to schedule my sonogram appt yesterday!!! It is May 13th I am soo excited lol I had to tell everyone I am just so dang thrilled that we are already at that point!!! It means we are already almost half way through which is well just nuts to think about but all the same I can't really complain much lol! So I will be posting another update on May 13th to let everyone know if we are having Fallon Elizabeth or Conner Ryan...that is if the little stinker cooperates with us!!! So on the 13th everyone needs to be thinking girl for me!!! Oh and one last thing I am feeling baby flutters in my tummy so won't be long now before the big movement kicks in YaY!!! Hope everyone is well!!!

Second Trimester!!!

Not much to tell really. Went last week and heard the heartbeat again only much much stronger this time and right on track for where I am supposed to be!!! Also did my diabetes testing this week boo for diabetes lol I failed which was expected. So I have to go see a diabetes consultant and start tracking my sugars and all that fun stuff. At my next appt we should be scheduling my sono appt so we are very excited about that. Will send out another update after we have our sonogram. Hope everyone is well!!! Oh and if you couldn’t tell we are into our second trimester now YAY!!! Still feeling pretty great most of the time!!!

Update 12 Weeks!!!

Well everyone we went to our first official appointment today!! Nothing special just blood work for me and some questions oh and we got to hear the baby’s heartbeat!!! So yes there is a baby in my belly lol that made us feel much better especially considering they say that after you hear a heartbeat the pregnancy is supposed to be more grounded and official because you feel more confident about it!!! Anywho don’t know officially yet because we haven’t had an ultrasound but according to dates I should be 12 weeks along now!! And am still due on September 29th!!! I will let you know updates as we know them...I get to go back in today and do a test for gestational diabetes because I had it with Sully I am getting tested as early as possible with this one..ugh three hour test...ugh. I will send out an e-mail letting everyone know how it goes!!! For those of you who would like to know lol I am feeling actually pretty great this pregnancy!!! I am very exhausted so looking forward to getting some energy back in my second trimester but I am just thankful that I haven’t had hardly any morning sickness nausea a few times but I am just happy to be feeling good!!! Happy Easter everyone!!

Pregnant!!!

Hey everyone!!! Thought I would let everyone know what is up with us and our little family!! We found out today that we are having another baby!!! Our new edition is due September 29th. Which puts me at about eight weeks along. I am feeling fine aside from the nausea, sore boobs, and wanting to sleep all the time lol!!! I will keep everyone updated as my pregnancy progresses!!!